Merry Christmas!!

Well, its a few days early but who knows when I'll be back on here to say that! We are t-minus 2 days until we leave for Juniper Springs, Ocala National Forest. I can't wait!!! I have to get a few more things for our trip but then I'm done! I'll post pics when we get back.

In working news, I am going to become the Lead Therapist!!!!! Basically, I would take practicals from the newbies coming in, and fill out their new hire paperwork and act like a liasion for the therapist to management, which I kinda do now. Anyway, I have to wait for the Owner to offer it to me with the pay and a job description, but I can't wait.

In TTC news, I'm still playing around with the insurance plans. Ugh, there is so many to choose from and they all differ. What a pain in the ass! I'm still waiting for AF to arrive so I start charting again.

Hope you all have a great Christmas with all you family and friends!!!

Oh my, it's been a while.

I am sorry. This working thing is getting in the way of my nesting time. Sucks, big time. I hope by the begining of the year I can get a new phone. I really want the new Motorola Cliq

I have T Mobile, and my contract is up for renewal in March, so I think I'll be upgrading to that one. I can surf the web and most of all, I can nest!


So, lets see.....I think I had a normal AF this month. I'm going to wait until I get another one and then I'll start temping again. Gotta get some more pee sticks too.

And I'm having to pick insurance. God, I never knew it was going to be this difficult. When I was an admin. asst. I had great insurance. I guess that's what I'm comparing what I had with what I have in front of me. My main thing is whether or not its going to cover materinty and they both say yes, just that its treated as a medical illness and gets taken out of my visits that I'm allocated for the year. Not sure how many visits I need for pregnancy either....maybe Medicad would be the better option there, ha ha ha. I'm hoping that this year, we can start trying. First gotta pay down the credit card bills, and then have some savings and then we can make the magic happen!!!

Well, I hope you had a great Thanksgiving. Christmas is right around the corner. I'm so looking forward to Christmas. We are going camping in the Ocala National forest, in Juniper Springs. I hope its going to be cold. We've been having a warm Winter, but it's Florida, what else is new? We are all prepared for cold weather and it better happen!

Until next time!

U/S Results

I got my copy of the u/s results as well as my bloodwork done.

The bloodwork for the HCG was <2, and anything below 5 is not considered pregnant.

The Transvaginal U/S, a.k.a dildo cam, said that I have a normal size anteverted uterus with no masses. It also said that I had tiny follicles in both ovaries. The other thing is that I have a endometrial thickness of 17 mm. Hmmmmm, ok.

The Transabdominal Pelvic U/S basically said the same thing, except the follies part. Also, the report says that the thickening could be from the recent bleeding that I had but couldn't be certain about that. Said that I was mid cycle at that point, whatever that means.

So, I guess for now, I'll continue temping and go from there. After we get insurance I might splurge on a monitior. Maybe I'm missing my window of opportunity.

If I don't post again, hope you all have a wonderful Thanksgiving with all of your friends and loved ones.

I really hate my dr's office.

So last Friday, I finally got a hold of my dr's office....after I called and left messages. Apparently the nurse practioner was out sick. Uhhh, couldn't the front desk just tell me that?? Anywho, the u/s came back normal and fine. So I just had a really, really heavy period. I'm having her mail me a copy of my bloodwork and u/s because I have a friend that can read them....and I know google ;) So now that has all blown thru, moving on now.

Work.....oh good ole work. When I started there, I told them I need one weekend off a month to go see my step daughter. I asked for Thanksgiving weekend off and Christmas weekend off. It worked out that I have Wednesday and Friday off so all I need is Saturday and Sunday. Well I was looking at my schedule and what do you know, they have me working. Oh no!!! So I went and talked with the owner and shes going to give me those days off. Then she asked me when I was going to take up more hours....um...I'm already at 33 and that in itself is pushing it. I might add more hours to what I'm working now, but I will not add another day. I would rather have 3 days off. We'll see what happens.

Update: The ultrasounds

The pelvic one wasn't bad.....other than the fact that I had 32 oz of water in it. Just a little uncomfortable. Got up to go pee and then it was time for the dumm dumm dummmmmmm the dildo cam! She (the tech) had me reach under my gown and 'insert it' then she took over. Couldn't really see much on the screen, and it's not like I know what to look for either. I hope to hear from the dr's on Tues/Weds. Look for an update then!!

I'm not pregnant.

Which is good news. I go in Friday for a pelvic and a transvaginal ultrasound. I have to drink 32 oz of water in an hour and then I have to hold it. Should make for a fun appointment. I'm trying it today and tomorrow to see how I feel. I hope by Wednesday I get some answers as to why I was bleeding so heavy.

I'm back to work!

I thought I would never say that, but I am working. Man, oh man, am I sore! First day I got 4 clients, and of course, they all want DT, and the next day I get 5. I have a feeling that I'm going to be getting a whole lot more DT clients. One LMT doesn't like me....bc I'm the new girl and they shouldn't be hiring any new people unless they are busy. Ummm, hello? Everyday that I have worked has been busy. Whatever, its water under the bridge and I know how they work. As long as I'm making money, that all that really matters.

I hope to get more answers today as to what happened last week. Thankfully the bleeding has stopped. Still having some cramping, but otherwise I'm good. That dr's office is no longer getting my business. When I went in to get my blood drawn, I should have known that it was going to be wrong. I called for 2 days straight only for them to tell me the phelobotomis fucked up the blood draw! How the hell does that happen? So I go in Friday am and I got a different girl, thank god bc I would have had words with the other one. I ask if they can do this STAT and she tells me its up to the DR and the lab. I asked if she could call me and just let me know what is deceided. She calls and says if they got it STAT that it would be after the office is closed...fine. So I have to wait until Monday. It's too early for me to call yet, I have 20 mins.

And then, I need to call the imaging place to see how much its going to cost for a transvaginal ultrasound, i.e. dildo cam. So looking forward to that one.

I'll probably update later today or tomorrow.

So...

Here is what I know.....

Sunday, woke up to really bad cramping, took some excedrin went back to bed. Got up Monday, had more cramping, took it as AF coming (which isn't right because I had AF on Sept 17. I have been having 29 day cycles for a year. On CD 29, I had some spotting and thought AF was here, it only lasted 1 day. 8 days later, and its Sunday) So I take some extra strength Midol, not really helping, but whatever. I go and do some errans and start to feel some blood coming out on to my pad, which I had an Super Extra tampon in and just put it in 15 mins ago. Get home and holy moly a clot the size of my palm comes out. More cramping, another big ole clot. I continue to have clots, but they are getting smaller, and the bleeding is so heavy and the cramps are out of this world! I've never felt that kind of pain.

Fast forward to today (as if one day is a fast forward) and I have more bleeding and more clots. Just not as heavy. Call my new job, that I was supposed to start today, tell them what's going on and the manager is super compasionate...tells me that I can take the week off, if need be. Call my OBGYN and tell them whats going on and the fit me in. I went in, had some blood drawn and they gave me a script to have a pelvic ultrasound. I hope to get some answers tomorrow afternoon.

So....what do I know? I don't. It could be a miscarry, could be a ruptured cyst or fibroid, could be endo, could be a heavy period, I have no clue.

Now, for what its worth, I took 5 pregnancy tests after my 1 day of spotting, thinking that was AF, and all were negative. I didn't chart either so I have no idea what was going on.

I will update once I know more.

Yay!!!!

I'm so flipping excited!!! Massage Envy called me and want me to come in tomorrow for the walk through and get my uniform and then I can hopefully start on Tuesday!!!

Can't wait!!

Annnnnnnnd

I got it!! Well, they have to do a criminal background check, which, of course, I'll pass and then they want me to start Saturday!!! Woot woot!!! I was so nervous for my practical and haven't really been regularly massaging for a year. But I feel good.

Annnnnndddd

I GOT A JOB!!!!

Oh, and heres the best part





IT HAS INSURANCE!!!!!!

This is the first location to offer it. At least that I've worked at. It's good news all around!

This might be the one

I have a job interview at 4:30 today at Massage Envy. It's at one of the locations that I wanna go to as well. There are like 4 within a 10 mile radius. After my interview I'll have my 1 hour practical which is just an one hour massage. I have a good feeling about this one.

Good bye my long gorgeous finger nails. I will miss you so. At least I know now that I have nails and what they looked like.

I'll update when I get back, around 6:30 ish.

FML

Well that interview just sucked big ole sweaty nasty old donkey balls. I get there after spending like 10 mins trying to find the hidden building, Great, now I'm 10 minutes late to what could be the best job ever. I get inside, tell the receptionist. So out comes Muhammed Achemed Ali (so not his name) and he's this little short man, about 5 foot (Pakistan- which I could careless where hes from) and has on a long sleeve button down linen shirt, black dress pants, and oh--heres the kicker, some Nike Air Jordans that are red and black. So I did an eye roll and enter his office. He proceeds to ask me how long it would take to fill out these papers, and I said, I dunno, maybe 10 mins. He then vomits information like I'm some sort of sponge and expects me to understand him with his accent. Uh-huh, sure buddy.

Basically, I would be aiding and abiding with immigrants to come into our country. I would be filling out their paper work to get a green card to come to the US. This guy has 7 different offices in Japan, China, Saudi Arabia and Canada. I would get their paperwork, after they paid of course. And then would be paid $20 per applicant.

Yea, no thanks. I don't wanna go to jail for helping Xan Jin Tao with his paperwork and have the police come find me and say that I helped plot the next terriost attack.

So needless to say, sigh, that I'm still looking. I went to Bed, Bath and Beyond and filled out an applicaiton. It would only be part time, but I need something. I'm still waiting to hear back from Massage Envy.

Thanks for all the well wishes!

Woo hoo!!

I got a job interview today!!! I know, it's only an interview, but hey, at least is something!! I just hope that this job (if I get it) will be a lot better than the other job I had. We'll see!!!

Wish me luck!!

Sorry, I've been gone....

So lets see, where do I begin....

We got to see K finally! We had to drive an extra hour to get her, but that was something we were both willing to sacrifice. We went the next day to see Grams in her nursing home and K had a good time there. We later went swiming and did lots of coloring and playing with play doh. The next morning we made cookies and she did an awesome job with it. Then we had to leave and drop her back off, so even though it was 2 days, it was worth it. We are going to see her again on Oct 17, that weekend. We'll be up in Lakeland to see her.

Ryan is going out of town for almost 2 weeks. And it that 2 weeks, since I'll have nothing better to do, it work out 2x a day. I'm still looking for a job and hoping something comes soon. I just found out that I no longer get unemployment benefits and now qualify for emergency unemployment. That only lasts for 13 weeks, so I have that amount of time to get a job. Sucks, because I thought this was going to be an easy transition and its the opposite.

No new news in the TTC part of my (our) life. I need to call the palm beach county health department and get in to see whats going on with my thyroid. Hopefully once I get that under control it'll be easier to get pregnant....of course I need a job first, but one thing at a time.

Well thats all I have for now.

Nope, not this week

Didn't get K this weekend. Their was a wedding they are going to....yea, I wish we would have known that. This is really pissing me off.

In the TTC news, I thought it would be so easy to get pg. I really did....I mean, we aren't really trying and we really aren't preventing. I actually cried on Wednesday night, because I thought this was going to be our month. Ryan got teary too. I feel that if it happens, then it happens. I know once I get a job and ins that I will go to the dr and get checked out, but otherwise, its to the county health.

Didn't work out...

We didn't get K last weekend. I'm hoping for this next weekend. So aggravated!!! Ugh, I wish he would go to court and get custody of her, at least partial so we don't have to deal with this anymore.

As far as the workouts are going, I didn't get one in this week. Wait, I lie, I went for a walk on Wednesday night. I'll be back on that bandwagon, again, come Monday. I got sick.

And I think thats it for now.

TTFN

Why can't things work?

Ryan has been trying all week to get his daughter down here for Labor Day weekend. Well, today is Thursday and she (the mom) deceided to text Ryan back, why they don't use the phone is beyond me, but I guess it makes it easier. On Tuesday, Ryan's grandma was put into a assisted living facility. His mom and Aunts can't take care of her anymore and its just easier this way. So we were trying to get her to come here so she can spend time with Grams. I guess the mom doesn't see that my family is down here, Ryans family is down here and its not like we go up (to Tampa, a 4 hour ride to Lakeland to stay at Ryan's brothers house, and then an hour to Tampa and an hour back and then we have to drop her off, so its another hour there and a hour back. We don't mind, but its getting old and want her to know the other side of the family) to see her, at least once a month. But its easier (for us at least) to meet half way and have her here for the weekend. Its 2 hours for us and 2 hours for her, to meet, and then another 2 hours back to the house. And we don't do it every month. We got married in May 2008, and she has been down here 2 times. Once for her birthday, which was a week later, and then once this year to see his Grams. Pretty sad. She doesn't even know Ryan's family and thats his daughter!

So anyways, I dunno now if we are going to be able to get her here for the weekend. I kinda wish he had visitation mandated from the state, but then, what happens? Does she have to meet us half way? Probably not, and then we are in the same boat. At least if it were mandated, we would have certain weekends and could have things planned out, and not have to wait until the last second to plan something. Maybe she doesn't understand that there are 4 families that all need to spend time with his daughter and we all need to share? I dunno. We'll see. They are still trying to work it out, and I it goes through

And the results....

Down 1.4 lbs and 3 inches!! Not bad for one week. I hope, I KNOW I'll have more on Monday!!

Another week

And another week has come and gone. ::sigh:: I wish I was working, making good money and getting ready to have a child. I wish that I could just find something that would be better than what I'm doing now-NOTHING! I try and stay optimistic but some days, I just wanna scream. I feel like crying and just staying in a ball and not face the world. But if I did that, then I wouldn't get very far. Instead, I put it behind me, and move forward. I think about the future and what will be there waiting for us. I know this is yet another step back, but we can only go forward right?

And heres another side note, I'm back in the bandwagon, diet bandwagon that is (but what else would it be?) and am doing the 30 day shred. I started on Monday the 17th and I plan on sticking with this one. So far I've only taken one day off because I was extremely sore, and I think I'll take tonight off as well, because I'm sore. Every Monday I will take my measurements and weight and plug it in. I better see a change in 30 days. I'm so tired of being the fat girl, that I want this change. I'll post on Monday my findings, until then, ta ta for now.

So....

Last Friday was my last day. I got my check at 4:45 and left work at 4:55. I had all my stuff packed up and I knew the owner was downstairs on a call. So I just had to get past him to get to my truck. I get past him and he didn't even see me! Success! I go to the bank, and along comes my fellow co-workers, they suspect nothing. Cash my check and I'm gone! So I went a whole week and not one phone call from that company. I guess they knew it was going to happen and it wasn't a surprise.

I went to a temp agency on Friday too and did all the paperwork and necessary computer tests and we'll see what happens. I hope I get something soon. Meantime, I'm still looking in the paper, online, etc.

As far as my body is concerened, I think I'm not ovulating. I feel twinges 2 weeks after my period where my ovaries are, but I'm not getting the temp spike I need to see. The OPK's that I'm using are working, but no positives yet. I just started snythroid so maybe that will jumpstart my ovulation. I hope so. I've always had this feeling that I was going to have problems getting pregnant and so far it holds true. I mean, we are not TTC now, but I'm still going thru the motions as if we were.

Update for those who care

So, as of last Friday, we are now down to 5 ppl. The partner left on Friday and the owner didn't tell us why. I have a feeling that we are about to be evicted from the building.....the maintenance ppl keep coming by asking for the owner and hes never there. Makes me very suspicious....Friday is my last day. I don't care. I'm going to take my check over to Wachovia, cash it, I don't care if they are going to charge me $5, I wanna my money that I worked hard for and I'm never looking back. Screw him. He wants to work us all to death and then say, oh, well you don't have a job now. Hes not even paying taxes nor taking taxes out of our checks. Thats not what I signed up for. Tomorrow I'm calling some temp agencys to see if they have some temp to perm work and I'm still looking at the paper and craigs list. Screw these ppl!!

DH is going back to St Louis. ::sigh:: At least I can get some good workouts while hes gone.

::yawn::

What a week. First time in 4 months I worked a full work week. Definitely a different change. I was beginning to think they didn't like me because all week long they (the 4 mangers and the accountant) were in meetings with each other all day long. They would bounce back and forth between offices and then go to lunch together....nevermind that they all came in at 10:30-11 and then left for lunch at noon and back around 1:30. But after all that, the accountant said she was leaving, she had a baby 6 weeks ago and doesn't feel that she can work and take care of the baby at the same time. Then I was thinking, they might let me go because I was the last one hired. So at 4:30 the owner called me in his office and I started to worry, only for him to tell me that they were downsizing part of the company and that they want me to stay. So I was happy about that. There are 4 other girls that were afraid they might lose their jobs, but they are ok too. They are only getting rid of the sales people and keeping the rest. Will probably downsize to a smaller office and go from there. Keep your fingers crossed. Hopefully things will continue to get better.

Also, with the job, found out that they don't have group insurance, instead there is a guy who comes in and you pick what you want and he gives you a price on it. I was a little mislead about that, but the owner said they 'may' get group in a few months. Who knows, and who knows if I'm going to still be there. Depends on what happens with this downsizing.

DH is out of town this weekend. He was out all week. Up in St Louis at the Ritz Carlton to upgrade their phone system. Once he gets back, he won't have a steady job anymore. Hopefully he can find something soon thats more reliable. At this rate, we'll never move to Central Fl. So while hes gone, I'm pressure cleaning the apartments...should be fun with all the rain we had today.

What a busy weekend

Started off Saturday trimming the hedges and running errans after that. Then today, we mowed, weedeated, and sprayed roundup for weeds. Trying to get most of the 'man stuff' done because Hubbs is going out of town for a week =(. He leaves Tues and comes back Mon. Not looking forward to a whole week with out my hubbs. Next weekend I'm going to be pressure washing the drive ways and side walks. Should be interesting. Tomorrow is my dads birthday. I think we are doing burgers on the grill. Something easy and cheap. Money is hard these days, even though I have a job now, I don't get paid until 2 more weeks. Ugh, and I won't get unemployment next week, because I worked 3 days of the week that I would be claiming. So no more 'free' money. I hope these 3 months go by quickly so that we can start planning our family.

Our relaxing weekend

We left Friday afternoon to head over to the West Coast of FL, to Englewood Beach. We love it there. Got married there. Will retire there....one day ::sigh:: The weather was perfect, the water was a nice 88 degrees, couldn't get any better. Spent all day Saturday shelling and lounging in the water. Sunday did the same until noon. Oh well. At least we had some good quality time together.
Here are some pictures for your enjoyment....
This is a dolphin, first thing Sat AM.

Another picture of the dolphin....my camera sucks!

My sexy hubby....who desperately needs a tan in the middle

The rest are sunset pictures from Saturday night



and us......

Beach weekend

I miss the beach. I feel like that is my second home. I hope to have a home on the beach. We are just going for the weekend, but it will be nice to get away. We are going with his MIL which is fine by me. We get along so it'll be nice.

Got another interview today. Its for a receptionist at some Home Savers place. I got the impression its for ppl who have a hard time paying their mortgage and they somehow shrink it? I dunno, we'll see. If I don't get this one, I'm going to some temp agencys. Happy Friday!!!

Family time

So let me start off saying that this may be a little long, but I need to get it all out.

I got married in May 2008, my g-pa and g-ma funeral service was in Oct 2008 and I just talked with my brother and his wife on 4th of July. I have not spokend with then since May 2008...because apparently I said something that set them both off.

Lets go to before the wedding, I has asked my brothers wife (we'll call her T and him J) to do my make up and hair for my big day. She told me that she didn't know until we got closer to the date, ok, I can see that. Never heard anything from her so I took it as she didn't want to do it. In hindsight I should have called her to follow up but I was running around with my head cut off trying to get our wedding perfect. I made a hair appointment and had the lady do my make up, no biggie. What really pissed me off is I didn't even get a card from them. Not that I was expecting any kind of gift, but not even a card? And they left the next morning without coming by for the brunch that they knew about...ok, fine. Whatever. I understand they have a little one that her mom is watching, but you could have spent 20 mintues there and I would have been happy.

So we fast forward to Oct....My g-pa was a war veteran, I think for the Vietnam War and I really couldn't tell you what he did because it was never discussed. Anywho, the city built this really nice veterans memorial garden and my dad thought it would be a good idea to do a service for them, since they are sitting under my parents bed collecting dust, so why not do a service for them. T and J came down and brought my nephew, L. (L is now 2 years old....we were not invited to his 1st birthday because they didn't have one and his 2nd birthday was a last minute thing) get done with the service and go get lunch, come back to my parents house and spent 2 hours with them. They left and we went about our day.

Fast forward to Feb 2009, my parents have season tickets to the Nascar race and go every year, sicne J and T live in Ocala and Daytona really isn't that far, they met up and had dinner. Now meanwhile, we have not heard from them, no phone calls, no cards or pictures (other than Christmas) nothing at all from them and they (my parents) were trying to figure out what was going on. No one wanted to talk and they (everyone) avoided the subject.

May comes, J calls and wishes mom happy mothers day.....June comes and dad didn't get a phone call for fathers day.

Here we are in July.....and the whole family came down. Apparently, J was the one not wanting to talk with his family and T was pushing him. I can see that. J is stubborn like me =) We get all the air cleaned and get everything off our chests and all it was, was miscommunication. From the accidental gift not being in the box for Christmas to stupid myspace comment that wasn't directed towards her. This went on and off for 2 years! I hope this never happens again because I love J and T and L!!! And I wanna be able to call them up and see them and talk to my nephew.

Friends may come and go, but family is always there.

Its Hump day

And thats not what I'll be doing. Stupid AF and her spotting, GO AWAY!!!! I never used to be like this, before BCPs I was 7 days and then on them I was 3-4 days. I wanna go back to my 3-4 days!! This sucks. DH thinks my plumbing is broken and won't come near me.

On a side note, not related, I got some new dog food for Bailey, its from Rachael Ray called Nutrish. I got the beef flavor and she actually gets excited to eat again. It was like a chore to get her to eat anything. So no more Beneful. It's only been 2 feedings and I can tell she really likes it.

What an awesome weekend

Drove up to Lakeland on Friday night. Got up early on Saturday to drive to Tampa to get K. Got there at 9 am and were so excited to see her. Its like everytime we see her she gets older. Drove back to Lakeland and headed to the museum. Its pretty cool, they have a little grocery store, a post office, a tv station, a space staion....all for the kids to play with and interact with. After that we went to the park and she played, had lunch and it was nap time. Went back to the house and did some paints and coloring and then made dinner. Got up the next morning and went to Steak and Shake, which we always do with her. Then we went to another park that had like 6 jungle gyms for her to play on and a butterfly garden. It was soo pretty! After that we hit the pool, got her lunch and then headed back to Tampa. She was out like a light. It was a good trip and the more we are with her, the more she doesn't wanna go back to mommy. I think thats great

Maybe this will be the one

I have a new job interview today. Just got done eating my breakfast and going to go jump in the shower and start getting ready. I hope I get this one. It seems like its more of what I was doing at the last job. Money is getting pretty tight these days and I think I may have to go cash in my gold coin from our wedding. Its worth $750-800 and it would be nice to have that. I'm still contemplating on whether or not I should. I can't remember how long I get unemployment for and I'm sure its coming up.....started in March, and got my first payment in April. Keep your fingers crossed!

Just a little update

Nothing really new to report....same ole, same ole. I had my interview yesterday and although I need a job...mainly for the benefits and to be quite honest I'm tired of the housework, I'm content pulling in my unemployment money and nesting. I look forward to DH getting home so that we can do something together...it's no fun sitting here all day and no one to talk to. He must think I'm a chatty cathy when he gets home. Ah, thats life right?

::sigh::

This is going to be a vent post...I have a lot of things I need to get off my chest

1. I am so tired of being unemployed. I have been since March and, thankfully, I am getting unemloyment but I'm sure like all the other people getting it, its not really consistant. I used to get it once a week and now its whenever they feel like it. HELLO!!! I still need to pay my bills!!! I have looked in the paper every weekend and craigslist and I'm just sick of it. I guess my next route would be a temp agency.

2. My truck is going in today. It won't start and I hope its nothing major. The warranty coverage is pretty good, but I'm still worried about it.

3. I got an off the wall myspace message from my SIL. (I'll try to make the back story short...since my wedding...now a year...I haven't spoken with her nor my brother. My brother sent me an email basically telling me to stay out of his life. They have a son, my nephew whom we (my family) has only see maybe 10 times. We were not invited to his one year birthday, nor his second. We do not get phone calls/cards/emails for birthdays, anniversarys, mothers day (my mom was pretty torn up) nothing. So now on to the story....she left me a comment telling me that there is a orlando premier this weekend and that they are offering massage therapy ceus. WTF?! Not a hi, how are you....just that. So I replied that I already have mine for the renewal. I'm still saying WTF.

Now I feel better. Happy Hump day.

So far this week.....

I have been getting my butt kicked by Denise Austin. Why do I do this to myself?? Ughh, but I know its for the better. Tuesday, Wednesday I did her DVD, yesterday I took a break because my thighs were killing me. But DH and I went for a bike ride. And this morning I took the dog for a walk on roller blades.....yeah....that was fun. She did pretty well for never being with me on roller blades before.

I know what my weight was before and I'm going to see how much I can lose by the end of June. I'm trying to think of it as a lifestyle change versus a diet, which is what it should be. Ughh, its sooo hard.

AW: Our first anniversary!

Wow....I can't believe its been a year already. My DH is so sweet. He got up before me and had flowers and a card ready for me when I got up. We then we to TooJays for breakfast and did a little shopping at the Mall. We then did some 'house shopping' (which is what I call it, for grocerys, maybe something for repairs like Home Depot). He had to run an erran so I went and took a nap and when I got up he had picked up my favorite for lunch, Tijuana Flats! We finished with that and got ready for our night out. We went to Figs, which was so good. We've never been there before but the reviews seem promising. Got a bottle of wine (I love me some Resling) and these Chicken Meatballs. We then ordered our dinner, I got the skirt steak and he ordered some bolognese pasta thing and then they brought out the awesome dessert (which was on the house because of our anniversary, which was so nice) bread pudding! Now, I'm not a huge fan of bread pudding, but the way they cooked it ::drools:: it was so good!

Here's some pics from our wedding:

So needless to say I am back on the diet waggon, lol. No more crap and no more wheat products. Lets hope that this works.

=)

So in 3 days is our one year anniversary!!!! Gosh, we have been thru so much this year and I hope the next year is a lot smoother.

Ugh, I'm so upset with my dog.

She's becoming a picky eater. I have never had any problems with her. I think it might be because we just moved (it will be 2 weeks on Sat.) but I haven't changed anything about her food. I feed her Beneful playful blend and she gets probably about 2 tablespoons of gravy (usually some of the jar kind- chicken, beef or pork flavor) I don't know if its because shes missing my moms dog or if its because of the new place or combo of both? It frustrating because I'm throwing away food and I hate to do that. There are so many animals out there that aren't getting fed and here I'm throwing it out. Any suggestions??

Shuttle Pics

So here are a few pictures of the Shuttle launch....

At this point you can actually feel the rumble of the rockets and hear it too!

And by this point it was too overcasted to see anymore of it.

We also have some film ones that haven't been developed, so once I see those I'll post them

Wow, I'm tired

So yesterday DH and I went to Kennedy Space Center to watch the Space Shuttle go up. We've had these tickets since, oh, Sept 08. They kept rescheduling and rescheduling so they ended up picking May 11 at 2:01 pm (est) while it was 95 degrees out!! It was freaking HAWT! At least we were over by this simiulator ride that had to be at least 65 degrees in the building so we were able to cool off after the launch. I have seen the shuttle go up probably 3 times before this, and this was the first time in the complex. Pretty amazing site. Once I get the pictures, I'll post them.

I hope all the mommies, mommies-to-be, and mommies of fur babies had a wonderful mothers day!!! (I know I'm late, but I had to entertain my MIL, his Aunt and Grandma, my parents and us for Sunday dinner and was a little busy on Sunday....and we got up at 7 am to hit the road yesterday for the Shuttle launch)

Yes, me too!

I was bawling my eyes out last night. (Greys Anatomy) Especially at the wedding. I hope that Mer and Derek will walk down the isle though. How thoughtful of them to give Izzy the wedding of her dreams. I know shes just a character, but still.

On another note, I am so sore from my massage I had on Wednesday. Thankfully my torticollis is gone, but jeez, she whooped my a$$!

I love my hubbs

Since I've been unpacking and organizing the house and trying to get it ready for Sunday, I have torticollis. I must have done it while lifting boxes or moving heavy things that I shouldn't have been moving, but none the less, my hubbs got me a massage today. I hope/know that they can help me. I can't do it myself!

Me....A-Z

A - Age: 26
B - Bed size:​​ Queen
C- Car you drive​:​​ Kia Sorento
D - Dad'​​s Name:​​ Timothy
E - Essen​tial start​ your day item:​​ thermometer
F - Favor​ite actor​(​​s)​​:​​ Johnny Depp
G - Gold or Silve​r:​​ White Gold
H - Heigh​t:​​ 5'2"
I - Instr​ument​s you play(​​ed)​​: Trumpet
J - Job title​:​ SAHW, Massage Therapist
K - Kid(​​s)​​:​​ wanting one of my own
L - Livin​g arran​gemen​ts:​​ Finally out of my parents house and with my hubbs and our fur babies
M - Mom'​​s name:​ Tamara
N - Nickn​ames:​​ Pookie Bear, Pook, Muffin
O - Overn​ight hospi​tal stay other​ than birth​:​​ Nope
P - Pet Peeve​:​​ When people don't return phone calls or write thank you notes.
Q - Quote​s you like:​​ And in the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years - Abraham Lincoln
R - Right​ or left hande​d:​​ Right
​S - Sibli​ngs:​​ One brother, two sister in laws and one brother in law. I also have a newphew and a stepdaughter
T - Time you wake up: 6:30 am to temp and then I get up when I get up, lol
U- Under​wear:​​ never!!! ha ha, bikinis or hot shorts
V - Veget​able you dislike- Cauliflower!
W - Ways you run late:​​ Doing my hair. It takes a long time to straighten it so I try to plan for that the night before.
X - X-​​rays you'​​ve had: L foot 2x, teeth, neck, spine
Y - Yummy​ food you make- I've never cooked a bad meal =)
Z- Zodia​c:​​ Taurus

Happy!!!

Birthday to me!!! 26 yrs....and wow....I still feel like im 21!!!

On other news....we are moving in this week. Thankfully my mom is off Weds-Fri so we should be able to get most, if not all, the boxes in the house and then get a trailer or U-Haul truck for the big stuff. We worked on sealing the tile and scrubbing the old tiles and just lots of cleaning. I'm so excited for this.

Oh my....

I feel bad for neglecting you....I'm so sorry.

Ok...time for an update......

I'm getting more and more regular with my cycles. I've been slacking with the charting and have begun reading TCOYF and LOVE IT!!! It's really a great book to read to understand the body.

Oh...OH!!! The biggest news is that we are moving!!!! I am sooo happy for that!!! So I have been working on the new place and trying to get it ready for us to move in to. ::doing the happy dance::

No job....as of yet.....still looking and no calls. =(

Please.....

So now that I'm unemployed I'm looking at the paper every day, I'm logging into my monster, career builder and yahoo hot jobs, I'm looking an applying to anything that might be something I can do on craigslist and I haven't even received a phone call! I filed for my unemployment on Monday and it said that it would take 3-4 weeks and thats if theres no problems. And I'm really getting sick of my living situation but its not like I can go anywhere right at this moment. I'm just really frustrated and wanted to get some kind of good news.

I'm sooo hot right now!!

I understand that my company is letting me go...thats fine. But what I don't get is that they are advertising for another position? WTF! I have been here for 5 yrs, not really making a lot of money but it pays the bills and some other luxuries, but seriously? Grrrrrr

I knew it

Well AF just came....with all of her glory! Guess we'll try for next month. At least shes coming more regular now.

Damn

I found out yesterday that I'm being let go. :( Really stinks because I thought I would some how get past the recession, but I guess I'm part of that boat now. At least I have 2 weeks to find something, but I hope I find something.

Too funny not to share!

HOW TO SHOWER LIKE A WOMAN:

1.Take off clothing and place it in sectioned laundry hamper according to lights and darks.

2. Walk to bathroom wearing long dressing gown. If you see husband along the way, cover up any exposed areas.

3. Look at your womanly physique in the mirror, make mental note to do : more sit-ups/leg-lifts, etc.

4. Get in the shower.

5. Use face cloth, arm cloth, leg cloth, long loofah, wide loofah and pumice stone.

6. Wash your hair once with cucumber and sage shampoo with 43 added vitamins.

7. Wash your hair again to make sure it's clean.

8. Condition your hair with grapefruit mint conditioner.

9. Wash your face with crushed apricot facial scrub for 10 minutes until red.

10. Wash entire rest of body with ginger nut and jaffa cake body wash.

11. Rinse conditioner off hair.

12. Turn off shower.

13. Squeegee off all wet surfaces in shower. Spray mold spots with Tilex.

14. Get out of shower.

15. Dry with towel the size of a small country. Wrap hair in super absorbent towel.

16. Return to bedroom wearing long dressing gown and towel on head.

17. If you see husband along the way, cover up any exposed areas.

Part 2: HOW TO SHOWER LIKE A MAN:

1. Take off clothes while sitting on the edge of the bed and leave them in a pile.

2. Walk naked to the bathroom.

3. If you see wife along the way, shake wiener at her while making the woo-woo sound.

4. Look at your manly physique in the mirror. Admire the size of your wiener and scratch your butt.

5. Get in the shower.

6. Wash your face.

7. Wash your armpits.

8. Blow your nose in your hands and let the water rinse the snot off.

9. Fart and laugh at how loud it sounds in the shower.

10. Spend majority of time washing privates and surrounding area.

11. Wash your butt, leaving those coarse butt hairs stuck on the soap.

12. Wash your hair. Make a shampoo Mohawk.

13. Pee.

14. Rinse off and get out of shower.

15. Partially dry off - Fail to notice water on floor because curtain was hanging out of tub the whole time.

16. Admire wiener size in mirror again.

17. Leave shower curtain open, wet mat on floor, light and fan on.

18. Return to bedroom with towel around waist.

19. If you pass wife, pull off towel, shake wiener at her and make the woo-woo sound again.

20. Throw wet towel on her pillow.

If there is anyone among you who did not laugh at the truth behind this,there is something SO very wrong with you.:-)Have a great day!(Oh, and... woo-woo!!!)

hmmm

Well last weekend was good....got to see my step daughter. That was fun. Had AF and then we did the BD and now im back to having the brownish CM. This is so frustrating. I just want to know WHY! Is it him? Is it me? It's probably me, but ugh...I just wanna know when I can be done with this so that I can start tracking my O!

Down in the dumps

Last week, I was feeling pretty crappy. Monday I had to go give blood for my thyroid check, I get home and feel like crap. Wake up the next morning, I can't breathe, I'm coughing and my ear hurts. I go to my ob for a follow up from my LEEP procedure I had done in Nov....she tells me not to worry about the brownish CM and to worry about my thyroid B4 we get pregnant, then I got back to my drs to get my blood result and I have bronchitis and a ear infection. Fun stuff. I'm starting to feel more like myself again...and I need to get a workout in, but feel that my lung won't be able to stand it. This sucks

Presidents Day

I guess today is about reflecting on our past Presidents....who wants to deal with the past?? Psh, I don't. =) Happy Birthday Mom.....and Mr. Washington.

Anywho....I got all kinds of Dr's appts this week....including one to the OBGYN's office. I still have questions from when I had the LEEP procedure done in Nov....and wondering if thats why my CM is a brownish color....maybe bc of the amount of BD we are doing, LOL.

Got to talk to the step daughter last night....I can't wait to see her. =)

Friday.....the 13th

Yea....we are going to see that movie tonight....should be interesting bc the DH doesnt like scary movies....but he never wants to do what I want to do. Also, we have valentines day on Saturday...don't know what he has planned, but I hope we don't go out. Whats the point? Everyone is out there trying to get something...I would rather just stay home and make something together.

wow

I got home last night....dinner was made, the animals were fed, the laundry was done....my night couldn't get any better.....or so I thought =)

ok.....BD time!

So, unfortunatley, my DH and I are at my parents house due to him losing his job, and not really finding anything.....did I mention that I am a newlywed too?? Anyhow, things happen, and we are here....so my parents are going outta town for the next 6 days!!!! OMG...I love my parents to death, but it will be like our honeymoon night all over again. I just text my DH and told him we are going to do the BD like bunnies!!! LMAO....just thought I would share.

Brand new to this stuff

So....I am new to this....I do some blogging on Myspace, but I don't think that really counts. I am really doing this to keep track of TTC frustrations and what ever else I feel like saying.